Railroad tracks in San Clemente State Beach

One of my goals this year? To write one blog post a week.

It’d been so long (two years?!) since I’d been on a regular blogging schedule, and I missed it.

I wanted to get back in the swing of blogger things.

So on January 4th, eager to stick to my guns, I pressed publish on this blog post. It was exhilarating. I turned to my boyfriend and said, “I literally *just* wrote something — and now it’s on the internet!”

You see, although I started out as a blogger, I’ve mostly been freelance writing the past few years. And that experience is WAY different from blogging; there are many, many more hoops to jump through before something appears online.

For those of you who aren’t familiar, here’s the process behind much of the freelance writing you see on the internet:

  1. Think of an idea
  2. Spend way too long deciding where to pitch said idea (BTW, I’m actually about to launch a website that should help with this process!)
  3. Dig through the depths of the internet to find the appropriate (you think?) editor’s email address
  4. Email them with a pitch that’s somehow concise and compelling and charming all at once
  5. Get a mailer-daemon or demon or whatever response that that email doesn’t exist
  6. Try another email
  7. Refresh your email like a maniac for the next day, waiting on that elusive YES
  8. Never hear back
  9. Decide you suck at writing and probably should just go back to working at an ice cream shop
  10. Email a polite follow-up in two weeks
  11. Still probably never hear back
  12. Start applying to ice cream shops
  13. On the once-in-a-blue-moon miraculous event you hear back AND they want your pitch, jump up and down for a while
  14. Do research
  15. Write, then agonize; write, then agonize
  16. Finally send it in
  17. Get edits back
  18. Revise and resubmit
  19. Later (sometimes MONTHS later) watch it magically appear on the internet
  20. Send your invoice (a process which I could write a whole other post about)
  21. Begin all over again!

That’s a stark contrast to blogging, where the steps are:

  1. Think of an idea
  2. Write it
  3. Click publish and now it’s on the internet

Holy shit! Now you know why it felt incredibly freeing to publish a blog post.

But, that publish high was nearly two months ago. Since then, I’ve failed miserably at my resolution; I’ve published a grand total of TWO more blog posts. And neither were particularly thrilling.

I’ve never been good at math, but I know enough to tell you that does not add up to one post a week.

I could make a bunch of excuses; that I’m busy, that I’ve got other deadlines. Those are true, but they’re not the real reason.

Why I Haven’t Been Blogging

The real reason is I’ve forgotten how to blog. Or, more truthfully, I’m scared to.

To a writer, blogging feels like freedom — but like many things associated with independence, it also feels intimidating. 

Now that I’ve been coddled by editorial meetings and pitches and acceptances, being on my own again is overwhelming.

I have lots of ideas, but without the validation of an editor (and that lovely 21-step process), I’m not sure which to pursue. 

What’s too navel-gazey? What’s most helpful? What will resonate? 

Do I even know my writing voice anymore, when there’s no filter, no editorial process, no higher-ups dictating how and what I should write?

I don’t know, but I sure hope so.

Because the thing is; I may not have an editor, but I do have YOU.

You may not correct my copy, but you can guide my content. You can tell me what you want to read about. What would make you excited to stop by my corner of the internet.

Would you mind helping this blogger who’s forgotten how to blog? By telling me what you’re interested in below?

Hopefully, seeing your responses will help me shake off the fear I’m writing nonsense no one wants to read — and help me remember how to blog.

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I started this blog to help people get over their fear of living and traveling differently, and now I need your help to get over MY fear. 

Of writing things you won’t like. Of being out of touch. Of no longer being a blogger. 

PS. If you’re a blogger or writer who’s ever gotten into a rut like this, I’d love to hear your suggestions for recovering!

Thanks. You guys are the best.