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The Unexpected Emotion That Follows Grief

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I’ve now lived my life for three years longer than him. That’s 1,095 more days of banalities: spilled coffee, loads of laundry, trips to the grocery store. And 1,095 more days of what makes life worth living: side splitting laughter, whispered I love yous, last calls at new bars in new cities. Over these years […]

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Goodbye to a Man Who Devoured the World

Anthony Bourdain

I’ve never been one to mourn celebrities. Though I always feel sorrow for the deceased’s friends and family, for those who actually loved and breathed them, I never understood how people could be upset by the loss of someone they’d never met.  And then Anthony Bourdain died.   He had long been my dream travel […]

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Same Country, Different Planet

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On New Year’s Eve, I moved to another planet. One where people are bizarrely nice. Where stores are closed on Sundays. Where the accents make me blush. Where directions include “just look for the giant Jesus statue.” Where, in the grocery store, they walk you to whatever you’re looking for — instead of flinging a […]

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Tomorrow’s Reason

Two years gone… and I’m not sure what to say. That I still think of you every day; that I finally feel OK? Because both are true. When you died, everyone told me different things: time would heal, time wouldn’t heal, it would get easier, it would never go away. They’re all true, too. Grief […]

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The Unusual Way I’m Practicing Lent This Year

sunset Ketchikan Alaska

I know, I know; I’m an atheist Jew. Lent most definitely does not apply to me. Call it cultural appropriation or FOMO, but I’ve been participating in “Lent” since elementary school, when my best friends (who were mostly Catholic) would give up chocolate or soda or TV for 46 days. Along with one of my […]

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The Truth Is I’m Scared to Blog

Railroad tracks in San Clemente State Beach

One of my goals this year? To write one blog post a week. It’d been so long (two years?!) since I’d been on a regular blogging schedule, and I missed it. I wanted to get back in the swing of blogger things. So on January 4th, eager to stick to my guns, I pressed publish […]

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30/1

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Tomorrow is my 30th birthday. The day after tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the worst day of my life. And the thing is: I can’t untangle the days.

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The Bad Dream That Hasn’t Ended

This blog has been silent for a long time. The longest time since its inception, actually. Why? Because I recently experienced a horrific loss. A loss so vast, and so debilitating, that I have barely been able to get out of bed each day — let alone work or write. But lately, the story has […]

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